I don't want others to peep into my little space.
I don't want people to see me at my worst.
I'm ashamed of the dust on my desk.
I'm angry I have no nice things.
I want people to only see the outside, where everything is nice and clean.
I'm afraid of the stares I may gain.
I don't want others to see all the dirt and dust I've gathered over time for I am afraid of rejection.
I lie to myself about being confident for I am afraid others will lose confidence in me.
Maybe, just maybe leaving these windows open will clean my dirty little space.
Maybe I can feel free.